Sounds deeper than it really is. I have decided with the new focus on me for this year it is time to get this blog a dusting off and attempt to keep track of what I am working on. Sometimes I will have actual updates and other times there will just be my gratitude list. I’m an optimistic person by nature but I find it harder and harder as I get older. I’m heading to Missouri tomorrow so I have packing to do. I love me some Missouri.

So, on that note, my gratitude list…

  1. my family
  2. a week off from the job
  3. a new year to get it right
  4. having the desire to get it right
  5. my truck (It is an old farm truck but I love that thing. Farm girl at heart I suppose!)



a bit of an update…

Hi knitty people! I am crusing around the web looking at college and working to finish the last few items on the back to school list before the kids go back to school. Tomorrow is the first day of school for all of my kids. Including the Princess. Oh the sadness. Even though I know that we will both be okay its a little difficult to let my baby head off to school. I just have to look at the bright side right? She gets to learn and I get 3 hours of alone time to do what I want everyday. (yup, monday through Friday) So you know, there is that.
Another new development is that I have decided to go back to school and get my bachelors degree Major in something business and a Minor in English. Sounds like a good combo to me!

Knitting news? I have in fact been knitting. I am working on a sock that was designed by a friend of mine with some indie sock yarn. Belly flop by Poppy Flower Fibers. I got the yarn in a destash so I am not overly certain if the yarn is still for sale, but the yarn is nice to work with and the colors are coming together nicely in the sock. I am enjoying it muchly. No spinning around here lately though. I have decided to sell my Clemes and get a lendrum instead. I think its time that I own a wheel that I like working with. I love the Clemes and its history, but it just doesn’t love me.
I think that is all I have for right now.


Happy Birthday…

While the celebration of  America is high on the list of  a lot of people today (even if it is drunken fire works for a lot of them) High on my priority list is the Celebration of the birth of my daughter, Art Girl.

She has this biggest heart and I couldn’t ask for a more wonderful 11 year old!

Loving Mother



Okay. This will be a better post. I was feeling overly depressed and everything I typed was nothing short of sad. No one needs to read that so I didn’t post it. We have been getting no where fast. We are trying but even with two incomes now we are having problems saving. Its still paycheck to paycheck when in reality it shouldn’t be. We are spending way too much in groceries (feeding 5 kids and 5 sometimes 6 adults is crazy expensive) We would ask T’s parents to help out more but when they do they buy the cheapest stuff available even if no one will eat it. Plus we are paying half the utilities. Which would be more than fair if it wasn’t costing us more to live here than living in the old house. Seriously. I still am very grateful to have a place to stay but am more than ready to get the hell out of dodge. Needless to say I was feeling insanely stuck. So last night when T sat next to me and asked me to keep an eye out for rentals so we can get out of here by August it felt as if the weight of the world was lifted off of my shoulders. T was so used to being head of the house and making the rules that when he wasn’t allowed to turn on the air yesterday it was last straw for him. We are both tired of dealing with all of the things that go into living in a blended household. All that i have to say is that it is about freaking time. I am already finding houses that will be big enough and in our budget to keep ourselves from going under. I can’t wait to have our own house again. To not have to Deal with other people 24/7 would be a dream. (BIL is always here)

Anyway, we had a great weekend. It was family reunion time again so getting to see everyone was wonderful. I miss my family so much!Grandparents and Aunts and Uncles

Ahh the family

When things look the bleakest, Family is the best medicine.



(I will be adding some details about projects soon I swear! heh)



I really should be more thankful. I am. really. But things are so different here. Things that would be okay in my own house aren’t here. Little things are noticed and grumbled about. I don’t help enough sometimes, and other times I do to much. Really I feel I can’t win. Some days I would rather be at work. At least there I don’t feel the need to jump at every tiny thing. Maybe it’s all in my head. Maybe. But this certainly isn’t my home. There is no place here that i feel comfortable in my skin. I get more tense coming here from work than going to. I know that home is where you make it. This just isn’t it. This is someone else’s home. I think that it is a bit easier for T because this was his home once. Not mine. Apparently I just need to get out more. Make a bit more money. Get somewhere with life that is more than just sitting here keeping time. Something that will push me in the direction of home. That is what I need most.  Home. I am starting to feel rather stuck. Can’t go back and really struggling forward. I will get there. I know that I will. The job is going well. I am looking at the possibility of an advancement at the end of the summer due to the fact that one of the managers will be leaving. T is still doing well with his job even though he needs to find a new one. (Long and stressful story there) It’s just so hard to be patient when I can’t find anything in what we are doing that shows we are getting somewhere.
I don’t know. I know that I am feeling depressed and I probably shouldn’t be as badly as I am.
Maybe I just needed to get this out. No matter how disjointed and unorganized I may sound.
Thanks for listening.


Duke it out…

So in the midst of all of the turmoil T went out and got a dog. At fist I was very apprehensive about the whole thing. I mean really. A dog? Don’t we have enough to worry about on a day to day basis without throwing a dog into the mix? But one look at this animal and I fell in love. Just look at his face!
He is a white german shepard and so smart. We have him in doggie training classes right now. In the picture above he is 8 weeks old, he is now 3 and a half months old and every bit a puppy. He is a more calm puppy but still has his puppy moments.
Obviously he is fitting in quite well…
He looks a lot more German Shephard now than he did in these pics. I will have to take a more up to date pic for you all. Really he is such a great dog.In other news poor Princess has pnumonia. Its not a bad case thank god. She should be back on her feet very soon now that we have her on antibiotics but leading up to this has not been easy on her. Thanks to the antibiotics her fever finally broke after her having it for 3 days.  Now to get her fully healthy.

Before I close there is a website that is giving away a dress to someone who links. Heres the link to this most fab dress…

Grosgrains Loose Teeth Sundress giveaway!

Off to hit the day head on!



Different things…

You know it’s funny how you really don’t realize how much you enjoy people until you go back to them. I have done the online thing for many years now. (many, I met my hubby online over 11 years ago if that tells you anything) but every once in a while I take a break forced or not, still a break. This one wasn’t quite forced as much as not wanting to sit next to the brother in law who is at his computer literally 24/7 . Dude annoys the puck out of me… yet I digress… This break was not fun for me. I missed everything about the internet and the group of people that i had come to rely on the remind me of who I was when the world was busy beating me down.

Thankfully I am back! The hubby knew how much I missed all of this so he saved up some money and went out and got me a laptop. Yes I am a bit spoiled. I cant help it.

I missed you guys!

Missed you!

Missed you!

I know, I know…

I owe you a post. That will come tomorrow. (I am slowly beginning to buy that whole using oil to clean my face thing. More on that tomorrow)

Grosgrain is having another giveaway. This outfit is beautiful and I really hope that if I don’t win it, that She will start selling it. because OMG.

Go look.

Seriously adorable!



The insanity experiment…

No, I am not trying to figure out how insane I am, (Truly I all ready know. So testing that would be just plain silly) What I am testing is a new face wash method that I have read about before, just thought it crazy so I never tried it. What is this new (well, new to me) method? The Oil Cleansing Method. Oil? Yes, oil. I first read about it back when Jessica had her other blog. I basically ignored it because why would I want to add oil to my already oily face? Well, she posted about it again and, seeing as how I have tried everything else on the planet that was supposed to get rid of acne, from the over the counter stuff to the high end (read, Expensive as all get out. Proactive I am looking at you) and none of it has worked. Sure it worked briefly, but I would inevitably I would get back into the endless cycle. So this time I paid attention to what she posted on the subject.  Then I went to the Oil Cleansing website and read through that. It all made sense. Really.

From the Oil Cleansing Method site:

The reasons we have so much trouble with mainstream skin care products are numerous, but two reasons, in particular, lead the pack. These products strip the oil out of our skin, leaving our largest organ trying to repair itself by replacing the oil stripped away. This leaves us in a cycle of being tight and dry followed by the inevitable oil slick. Each time we strip the oil away, our skin over-compensates for the lack of moisture by creating more oil. On top of the drying effects, these products are highly-scented. Fragrance is one of the top skin irritants and strangely enough, even the so-called “unscented” products usually contain fragrance.

I think that I might be more open to the idea because I did research and tried Shampoo bars a while back. We use so many chemicals on ourselves, when really we don’t need to. So I have decided that I would try this method and document it on here for everyone to see. Every Wednesday I will take a pic of myself and let everyone see my progress (or lack thereof) Yes, I realize that today is Friday. But I have done it since Wednesday and I even took my picture on Wednesday to share with you all.

Ugh. I don't enjoy pictures of myself. heh

Ugh. I don

I will say that in a few days, My face is a little softer (as are my hands) tune in next Wednesday for a new picture!



P.S. Remember the link I posted yesterday? Her stuff is going fast! It’s adorable, well made kids clothes. Don’t remember the link? I shall post it again for you!!

New Store…

There is a new store on the block and it is Grosgrain!

If you want to read more about it you can go to the blog and get the low down. She is a gifted sewer and I do believe that there are some little girls in my life that will be getting some skirts. Beautiful!



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